Eileen Snape: boner killer

You wanted to put the decision into the hands of the people, did you? Well, from what I can tell, the people are speaking quite clearly and it's entirely against you, Voldemort. Did you expect anything different? Did you expect us to just roll over and bare our throats to you? A man who would send vampires and werewolves out to murder innocent children?

No, you're not a man, that's an insult to every decent man out there. You're just a monster. You and your deluded followers. You do not want peace and no one is foolish enough to believe it. If you wanted peace, you would turn yourself and your followers over to the DMLE to be dealt with appropriately for the crimes you have committed.

But you won't, will you?

Because you and your followers are cowards. Nothing more.


[Warded to Emily Prewett]

Oh, I am shaking, Emily, so much so I could barely complete that without it showing. I think you'd be proud of me for saying it though, for saying what I'm thinking for once. But how could I not when they murdered you and tried to do the same to Rufus? And he with a baby on the way.

No, it is time to stand up and take a side.

I do so miss you, Emily.

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

It doesn't feel quite the same at work, knowing that I won't ever pass Emily in the corridor or drop off completed paperwork at her desk. Why her? Was it for some specific reason or just because she was an Auror? I suppose I'll never know. I'm scarcely going to ask such question of those disgusting Death Eaters.

At least Rufus survived. And got married! I was so pleased to see that he was well enough to get married. I hope he and his wife are very happy. They deserve such happiness.

I wish the same thing for Severus though I fear for him. Perhaps I am foolish to do so but I can now. I don't have to concentrate everything I have on Tobias to keep the peace. I can care for my son and fear for him. I want him to be happy though. He deserves that. Perhaps I do too. Perhaps it is time to shed my widow's weeds.

He knows though. It is for the best, I think. He knows the truth and while the truth can be painful and shocking and startling, in the end I think it is for the best. I do think I surprised him though. I don't think he'd thought me capable of such a thing. A lesson learned for him. A person can only be pushed so far.

[/Ward]


I took a walk through Hogsmeade today after work and it was thoroughly pleasant. Spring is such a lovely time of the year, so full of promise and hope. I think I will have to take a walk every evening. I did enjoy it so much.

[Warded to Severus]

SEVERUS TOBIAS SNAPE!

What is this book I found in your room?

[/Ward]

( [Warded Private] )

[Warded to Severus]

I shall be spending time in the evenings removing the wards and any traces of magic from the Spinner's End house. I didn't want you to worry if I was late.

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

I think I will be quite glad to get out of Manchester and move to Hogsmeade. As much as this is the place I have always known, there are too many bad memories associated with it now. They override the good memories by far. There is also a feeling that Tobias or at least his presence is still hovering over us here. Not in actuality. I would know if he had become a ghost but everything in the house still causes him to loom over us. It is more than time for a new start.

And if we are in Hogsmeade then it will easy to go and drag Severus out of the Hog's Head. I wonder if I should worry that he is starting down the same path as his father but I am sure he would not. He has ample reason not to. No, I will not worry about that now. There is plenty of time to do that later.

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

I did not have the heart to participate in the events in these journals on Valentine's Day. It was never much of a holiday for so many years though I remember the early days of our marriage when Tobias would make an effort. I miss that Tobias. That young man who swept me off my feet. As well wish for the moon as to wish for that man to return.

Am I lonely? Perhaps though it does seem odd to feel that way. I would have thought I would having my freedom and not having to look over my shoulder at every moment. I suppose it is human nature to be contrary but I would have thought even my subconscious would still be enjoying the respite.

I could not miss the fuss in the DMLE today even if I had not looked at my journal. Two more people dead at the hands of these Death Eaters. What do they hope to achieve by doing this? Unless it is merely fear and terror. In which case I start to wonder about their sanity. A good leader wants the respect of his people, not their fear.

[/Ward]

Since it seems to be the thing to do:

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings. ~Anais Nin


( [Warded to Lily] )

Severus. There sounds like there's someone in kitchen. I think we have an intruder.

( [Warded Private] )

( [Warded Private] )

[Warded to Lily]

Lily, I have a question which I am not entirely certain I should be asking nor do I know whether you can or even will answer it given its nature but I have to ask. I have to know.

Was Severus bullied by your husband and Regulus’ brother at school while Remus Lupin stood by and did nothing to stop them?

[/Ward]

[Warded Private]

This was a good Christmas. I hate admitting to that since I did love Tobias but it's better now without him. Perhaps I should have just left him, taken Severus and gone but I had nothing in the wizarding world. No home, no family, no job, we would have had to come crawling back and that would have made things worse. No, it was better this way even if it does leave a certain irony when it comes to my current workplace.

Soon it will be 1980 and I believe it will be time to really start living. Perhaps even think about selling this place and moving into the wizarding world somewhere. I shall have to speak to Severus about that. But irrespective of that it's time to start remembering who Eileen is as a person rather than just a wife and mother.

[/Ward]

[Warded to Severus]

This was a good Christmas, wasn't it?

[/Ward]


I find that I am very much looking forward to the new year. I never expected to be a widow and a single mother at my age but things have never really gone how I expected throughout my entire life. However I believe I am stronger for everything that has happened to me and I have a wonderful, kind, intelligent son to be proud of. I have a job that I believe I am going to enjoy and life does look quite good from where I stand. I hope it will for everyone else.

( [Warded Private] )

[Warded to Severus]

I wanted to let you know I'll be out most of Monday. I'm going down to the career office at the Ministry to see if I'm in any fit state to join the DMLE. I'd imagine I'm not really but hopefully I can get a job there in the meantime and get myself up to the mark.

What do you think? Your mother, the Auror or Hitwitch. Sounds rather fine, doesn't it? Though I'd imagine I'll actually be your mother, the file clerk or secretary, for now.

[/Ward]


I did rather a lot of baking on the weekend, certainly more than I'd intended. A combination of a good mood and perhaps a slight indulgence in what might be termed a wry sense of humour. Still, regardless of the motivation, it all tastes good.

( [Warded Private] )

[Warded to Severus]

Severus darling, you must tell me what you want for Christmas. It’s our first Christmas with just us and I think it’s time for some changes.

[/Ward]

My son has been kind enough to give me one of these journals as an early Christmas present. They are quite fascinating and I’ve been resisting the urge to try and figure out how they work as I think doing so would destroy the journal itself. I used to enjoy experimenting with Charms though so maybe I can try to mimic them and see if that helps me work them out.

I'd like to extend my condolences to the Black family. Such a tragic event. Losing a husband and father is always terrible and news reports involving idle speculation with no evidence are of no help.

( I'm not quite broken )